Chapter 15: Wish for Awesome Fulfillment

In a nutshell, the beauty of destiny is fulfillment. I have realized that everything that happened in my life was instrumental and necessary in shaping my future. I am sure it was meant to beautify my life and condemn the shame of the past. It has now dawned on me more than ever that God's ways are not ours. The mighty hand of God has been sufficient throughout, and I have witnessed the lifting and Grace of God. For the far I have come, I acknowledge that He has been great, and I am optimistic that I will continue to receive more and more blessings. To the people who are going through tribulations, I encourage them that it will be great. In the end, their struggles and the adversities they are going through will be justified. The God of the valley is still the God of the mountain. One thing I realized through struggles is that the end justifies the means. The ending will be great if we are patient to wait on God. The blazing light of the word of God is instrumental in setting the pace and trailing the blaze of whatever path we choose to follow. Even in chaos, there is always time to commit and select greatness. I am encouraged because my walk with Christ has positively influenced me. I now understand why some things did not happen when I wanted them to. God applies a formula until we know what He is teaching us. Most times than not, we need to understand that it shall end in triumph because the faithfulness of God is instant. Unless we fail to follow through on obedience and other demands of God, we will continue to enjoy unusual blessings and scale phenomenal heights. I encourage you to work on your mentality. It is at the place of mind that most destinies are determined. Even when you are going through adversity, the right kind of thinking is critical. You need to understand that destiny answers mainly to the quality of mentality. 

Proverbs 27:3 "As a man thinks in his heart, so is he." This shows how important it is to shape our minds. We need to understand the various requirements that enhance the growth of positivity in mind. As simple as mentality sounds, it sets the pace for our destination. When you see someone affording a smile in the middle of adversity, you can tell how they are programmed. You can know that they do not believe in failure. Such a person is consistent in season and out of season.

In most cases, they can overcome challenges because they don't allow themselves to be wiped away by adversity. In my case, I chose to stand firm even when my healing had not been confirmed fully. Some from the inside keep on telling me that it shall be great. I have programmed my mind to think like a champion and to act as one. Nonetheless, I took this bold step and wrote my book concerning a possibility mentality. I am made to believe that nothing is impossible to a willing mind, the weight of trouble notwithstanding. All the victory stories I have ever read have something in common. They started to like the owners would eventually lose, but they never relinquished.

Although they had to face those challenges head-on, they emerged victorious. They were able to attract God's favor on their side, and the rest, as they say, is history. You are also not an exemption when it comes to adversity. My encouragement is that you will succeed no matter your circumstances. So long as the Lord is with you, victory is almost inevitable. I hope to impact mental health awareness. There is hope and understanding. We can change the way the world sees mental health. Navigating life with a mental health condition can be challenging. The isolation, blame, and secrecy often encouraged by stigma can create enormous challenges to reaching out, getting needed support, and living well. Let us not be afraid to speak up as we stand together! As I pray, I focus on my body with the expectation that God may touch me. I feel the pain in my head diminishing; I think of heat and electricity throughout my body. I am waiting in silence – not saying anything but waiting with expectation, allowing God to touch me!

I believe it's perfectly okay to be transparent and pour out my heart. That's one reason we are still here, learning to go deeper into God and encourage each other in love. I have come a long way. Navigating the situations I faced due to my illness was quite challenging. But despite all that I have gone through and am going through, I could have admitted defeat and let the enemy win. But the fact that I am filled with the Holy Spirit itself is enough proof to realize how much God loves me and how much He is guiding me. I am in pain, suffering from the disorder, and I believe that a loving heavenly father will not just leave me to cope with all my challenges. I will surrender to God for once body, soul, and spirit. I plan to relax in God and soak in His love with good worship music. I rebuke the spirit of reasoning. The supernatural shall take over the natural Lena. In the Scriptures, our God is a God of healing and restoration.

The atonement was for every illness the enemy had brought in on Earth. And no sickness is too significant that he cannot heal. I am at the end of this book. I got to see great deliverances in my life. I wrote this book of my testimonies to enlighten many people facing the same challenge as mine. I was being transformed into a supernatural new heart and mind to write. The enemy has begun to lose his footing in my life today. I am open to the Holy Spirit and allow His powerful love to wash my mind and make my heart soft and tender to receive more of His revelation and love. 

A crucial part of this phase of treatment from Dr. Melody London is to begin to understand when something in the present triggers me into the past and causes me to have feelings of the past in the present, resulting in my behavior. I can identify when that is happening. In that case, communication and cooperation among my different sides of me will let me know that now it's safe. It is crucial to differentiate between the past when it was terrifying, and the present, when I am safe, at this juncture. Now that I can recognize the triggers, my reactions are not so automatic, and I can stop them. Communication between alters is essential to successfully managing this condition, as amnesia far beyond typical forgetfulness can occur. Writing this book in a designated journal helps express what each change is experiencing. This is called system communication. Writing this book is extremely helpful for my healing. 

I didn't know what had hit me when I encountered God. It just felt like there was this tangible love that came with weightiness. Right now, my heart feels so much peace. I want to rest. I don't want to move, stay in it, relax, and let this almost liquid love come into my soul in every part. Jesus is not with any sickness in Heaven, so I am also not with any disease here on Earth. I am healed, restored, and redeemed. I am a child of God purchased by the Blood of Jesus Christ, and His Blood cleanses it all. I am blessed. I am anointed.

I do not have any sickness in Jesus' name! This was like a realization that God was doing something deep within my heart. I was permitting him, just saying, "God, whatever you have for me, I'm here. Just come. I'm so not used to this, but I love it, so would you keep coming and filling me with love and peace." If you have not yet encountered the power of God, it is important to know Him personally. It not only simplifies your life but also gives you a sense of relief. When I look at my life today, it is much better than it used to be. I now have a sense of purpose, and I am inspired that I will be able to manage many of the challenges that used to give me a headache in the past. When something seems complicated, I only cast my hope in God, and through prayer, I achieve fulfillment.

Ultimately, I wrote and completed this book, but it made me feel shattered and sick in a different sense as I discovered more about myself. I kept finding myself in many more predicaments and seeking out more about how it related to the supernatural that I understand now truly existed.